Sigh my msn won't work again. Rendering me probably condemned by my group members for not turning up once again. Boohoo.. it's not my fault this time!!!!!

Class 95 plays the best songs after 9 every weekday... Songs that have a nice rythm and meaningful lyrics as compared to the present day head-banging songs. Or am i just growing older!! hhaha... just had a long chat with mimiii!!!!!!! -waves at mimi if she's still online-

I'm doing a tape recording interview tomorrow.. yay.. hope it'll be fun! Mw is coming over to cook pasta tmr afternoon as well then we're gonna watch how to lose a guy in 10 days again.. looking forward to that..

Upon re-reading my entry i just realised my sentences have like NO LINK. haha an incoherent mind. sigh!!!!

"I observed you get excited pretty easily"

omg.omg.omg.omg.

haha that was a quote from one of my geog classmates. In specifics, he sits next to me and i was speaking to him on msn this morning when that popped out in the window. Should i be embarrassed or what man! Perhaps it was the culture of a51. haha.. always excited at almost every single thing..

Anyway it's such a cold day today!! I didn't even feel like waking up this morning so i just lazed in bed and listened to the radio for awhile. Yesterday totally drained me out. And i am so sorry for being such an irresponsible group mate. Sigh! we had made a pact to come online at 10 to discuss our project details but i got carried away at looking at the lanterns in chinese garden, so i had clean forgotten about coming back home by 10.

And so, by the time i rushed back at 11 they had already discussed almost everything and i feel downright guilty. I shall be online at 10 tonight and say my one million apologies.

I've just had a change of human geog lecturers and this new one is oh my golly by far the most monotonous lecturer i've ever come across. Except for his once in a while hurhur!, the rest of his voice is dead. how am i to survive!!!!!! -dies-

Tennis was wonderful last night! I'm not going today due to the bad weather though, but it would have been good to have more practice. I now know, the fundamental basics of the forehand. hahahahah..... hmmm well actually i did take beginner lessons in the past but it's somewhere in my brain archives so i decided to re-learn. Never knew we have to do a slight twist when we finish off the stroke!! Our coach couldn't make it last night and so we had a stand-in coach who was damn funny.

The chinese garden was so pretty last night. Aside from having carried my shoe bag, tennis racket and one ton school bag, we took lots and lots of pictures! Some of the disney characters looked a little distorted though. But all in all we had fun.. I was a tad bright though. 2 girls and 1 guy, you get what i mean..

Sis called me this morning and updated me on an ongoing affair in her house. how hilarious!!! The on-going process of a new couple in the making. tsk tsk... haha.. keep me updated ya!!

Today is my off day so i shall... catch up on all my work. tata!!

I'm feeling excited cos my msn is finally working and i managed to get my messages to the respective people cos i was lazy to sms. haha... last night was hair ripping in many aspects.

But just as i'm enjoying the convenience of msn once again, i have to pack up for school now. I wish i could bring my lappy plus the entire broadband along.

Happy mooncake festival folks!!

There has to be something wrong with my internet connection. I can't seem to sign into my msn, and i can't log on yo my gmail. Which is really pissing me off immensely because all i wanted was to just reply some emails and see whether my group mate had replied regarding my email about the project. dammit.

Not to mention that i went all the way down to town and two people didn't show up on me. I gave up swimming to meet them and they cancelled out on me right smack today. I'm not peeved anymore but just disappointed. Just a tad sore that i couldn't see these two people whom i badly wanted to meet. One to bid my farewell and pass her some stuff, and yes i passed her stuff but it was through a car window after which she sped off. Perhaps it was a miscommunication but i was just upset. Upset over the fact i dragged all my barang to town and my shoulder wanted to drop off, upset that i was unable to give her a nice bear hug to tell her that i'm gonna miss her as much as the last time she left. arrghhh i'm just bloody upset.

And I don't know what i've gotten myself into. I love going to church but the people are scaring me. As in they're so aggresive i am trying very hard to not participate in any of their activities at all. All i want is to go to church and worship my god, to thank him for all that he has given to me. Not meet you guys like every other day and have to report my life as a reason for not being able to turn up. Which is also partly the reason why i wanted to meet my old friends. People who know me enough for me to always find comfort in talking to them.

But nonetheless despite my being a bit peeved, cher was with me. :)) She's always there for me. We had a wonderful dinner at olio dome and the passion fruit tea there tastes great! She couldn't really eat though, but oh wells she's losing tons of weight! heh. I hope her braces won't pain her to death.

Now as i try to log into my msn again i'm almost 100% sure it'll have some troubleshoot problem and i tell you, it has been DAYS that they have denied my log in. ok the pesty window just popped up again. I shall go reinstall the whole thing, and do some research on psychoanalysis.

Tmr is yet another, packed to the brim day. And sometimes i just wished my parents would inform me ealier if they wanted me to go somewhere with them. It's like they tell me this very night and i'm supposed to reschedule every single thing.

On a brighter note, I bought a nice warm knit sweater from zara!!! japan here i come, for i'm well equipped now to brave the chills. yay!!! haha I was thinking about it on the way back. Hmm.. one spag inside, then a long sleeved top, then a black jacket, then the thick zara knit sweater, finished off with the pink cuduroy sweater and a nice scarf. Should be enough for the Japan wind. So, Japan here i come!! When i'm done with singapore nie shit. hahahaha....

I made a really pretty card for my lecturer last night and it took quite a bit of effort but it's so nice i'm immensely proud of my work. Haha.. it's not elegant nice but it's cute nice. I got this card making inspiration from one of the cards i saw in great world city. And oh geez it costs 9 bucks!!! So i thought hey i could do that on my own too and it looks just as pretty.

My fingers nearly went bonkers last night. From having to shuffle from window to window and typing endlessly, they nearly collapsed at the end of the night. But i think God takes some and gives some. I didn't manage to get the espla job that i wanted, but he blessed me with a new friend instead. :) Maybe I'm just not fated to be able to catch that performance. Sigh. Because of my stupidity i let go of a second chance at getting the job. All because of my stupidity.

With work piling up once again, I shall aim to enforce more self discipline! There's the human geog essay dateline coming up and that's starting to totally stress me out already. A mock english test this friday, basic counselling presentation coming up, and also the multiculturalism presentation, our piece of representative work, and lastly three basic counselling assginments, all due on the same day.

-rips hair and screams-

I can't wait for november to come!!!!

I did something really worthwhile today and it put a smile on my face, till now.

I'm just feeling proud of myself, and thankful for the friends who have brought me to the presence of god, to seek him into my life. :)

School starts again tomorrow and i'm loving it, not. sigh!

Bloody pissed with my damn self.

I had set aside the entire day to get my homework all done but with little self discipline and an immense amount of procrastination i have disgustingly read only one of my math notes and now i am clueless as to how to do a particular qn in the tutorial so it is basically just driving me nuts.

That's not just it. I had bought the straits times on september 11 because i specifically wanted some reference article for my research paper. And so i bought it and it lay in my house. Then today when i finally look for it it's gone. bloody gone. I think someone must have used it for something and it just had to be the very same one i was looking for. you know how it is when your luck is just down? i actually found september 12 and 13.

God I'm pissed.

And I pray that god would just bless me with calmness for my raging mind, so that i may get back to my goal of finishing what i had set out for today.

I just had the most exhilarating evening and my heart hasn't settled till now. :) :) :)

We shot up into the sky, did a few flips, plunged downwards, got thrown up again, did a few more flips, then plunged back down again before it stabilised and my legs went all wobbly. Janice screamed all throughout and she didn't dare open her eyes till i said what the hell, OPEN YOUR EYES!!!!!! the view from up above was just different, but oh well i guess i couldn't really focus as well cos my heart was literally torn apart in all directions in sheer excitement and delight.

Haha if you haven't already guessed, yes janice and i went on the reverse bungee thing in the spur of a moment where we managed to be gutsy enough. heh janice so wanted to pull out and i was calm, till it shot up and then i was not calm anymore. Cher and mw were guffawing at the bottom but it was just damn damn fun!!! My whole family watched the video clip just now and we laughed till i teared. Oh gosh it's so damn hilarious. Next time anyone who drops by my house, please remind me to show you the video. :)

Well, we decided to go there since we were at clarke quay anyway, after a three hour hair cut at tony and guy academy. But i didn't mind the 3 hour wait at all. Haha i'm such a hopeless nut. Yeah yeah the shi fu hair stylist there was darn cute and i was waiting for him to come and inspect my hair (which he did quite often). Wahahahah... i shall go there and cut more often!!

My geog field trip this morning was quite enjoyable too.. went for lunch with the other group today so it was something different. I just didn't want to stick to the same group all the time so i pulled out of their sushi eating idea, to join the burger king gang and i did enjoy myself. Guess it was a good way to get to know more people too. They're my geog mates after all!!

Perhaps I'll upload some of the pics up later.... tmr is like finally, one sat where i don't have to trudge to school in the morning. yipee!! But then again i'm so screwed. Been enjoying myself so damn much i've neglected my school work. eek.

I am SO envious of YOU.

Good Morning!!!!

It's a bright sunny morning and i'm awake at nine. Sheesh. I had planned to sleep till later, but i had a tummyache so here i am up and awake! Trying to think about what to wear to the gym later and what to bring over to janice's house. Haha.. later prolly go buy some masks too then we can relax at night and do some manicure there too.

Actually i wanted to go do a french manicure today, but alas i spotted a really nice fcuk top on saturday so the manicure has got to be sacrificed. ok what the hell am i ranting about here. sigh sigh i'm just typing at the top of my head.

Hmmm... the past few nights have been tiring.. I had to do bag check for tchakovskys pathetique symphony, and then ticket tripping for the trocks. much to my dismay, for i so wanted to catch that male ballet group, and then yest afternoon i did outer door. All three times i had to stand throughout so my legs ache a little now. Aye, cos of the lack of exercise thus i shall go to the gym later!

But after working three days in a row i must say i don't really dread working anymore. At first i was darn scared and panicky and worried that I wouldn't be able to handle idiotic patrons, but now i have settled in a bit, made some friends, so it ain't that bad after all. :)

I'm starting to talk nonsense stuff again. Shall go downstairs to get some breakfast then watch the telly. haha i'm such a slacker! Oh yes speaking of going downstairs, guess who was at my void deck area yesterday in the morning?!!!?!?? christopher lee!!! AHHAHAHAHA... yeah my dad went down to get breakfast then he came up and said christophori was here and i was like ?????? what? then he said christopher lee. so my mum and i went down to have a look and oh geez he is such a hottie. hahaah as in, in term of being suave. fooh! he was doing some filming at the lift area so we just stood around. quite embarrassing to have met many fellow neighbours though. hahahaha... and the director told my mum not to talk so loudly. -hides head in shame-

i'm off!

Tennis was so cool last night!!! haha I had a whole lot of fun just hitting some balls over at the NTU src. Heh ok minus the part where we readily entered ourselves into the advance learner courts wondering how come everyone else was so pro.

So my interest in tennis has thus been renewed. Whee... imagine looking all so damn cool with those adidas tennis shoes, a nice cap, the three stripes adidas top finished off with a tennis skirt. -smirk- but, wait till i can step to the advance learners court. Then I'll stock up on tennis gear. Meanwhile, all i've got are my humble pair of reebok shorts, and a couple of t-shirts, plus my all new racket made of titanium and it's so light!!! I can't wait for next week's tennis session! My other mates were so 'on' they booked the court in nie from 4-6, then we'll go over to the ntu side for some social tennis. haha.. official training hasn't started yet, so we're just learning from the seniors for the time being.

Tuition was cancelled today so i came home and slacked. haha.. oh wells i'm feeling so lazy! Perhaps cos there's no more stress since next week would finally bring about my long-awaited one week break. I got my math test back today and i aced it! haha woohoo.. it was pretty easy cos i guess it's the first test.. the next few would probably render me helpless.

I've already got loads lined up for next week. Though it's a one week break, I think I'll probably be as busy though, but more like busy enjoying myself. haha. here's the itenary :

Monday - off to shenton way with janice, followed by a stayover at her place ( I love her house like.. ALOT!! haha perhaps get a nice tan there too)

Tuesday - Have the famous jalan kayu roti prata for breakfast, then zoom back to jurong east library for some group discussion

Wednesday - tennis!!!!! heh. then tuition. Should have some spare time in the morning till afternoon to complete assginments

Thursday - free morning, then joel and the rest would be coming over for a mini cooking session, followed by work at the espla at night

Friday - Geography field trip!!!! local one though. haha prolly to bukit timah hill to examine some rock forms. but i'm still excited!!

Saturday - Espla work in the afternoon, then RTU gathering at night (is it still on?)

Sunday - hmmm... probably check out joel's church, then tuition in the afternoon if possible.

One more happy thing to note, this sat my class has been cut short by half!!! yipee ya ya yippee yippee yay... and I'm meeting jason and my soggy yans too! And come sunday I would have completed my 21 hours of work thus i'll get pay for my training soon.. ahhh bliss. Now i have money to pay off all my debts accumulated from mum. ahha sigh. Did i mention she demands i pay her 200 bucks per month for household expenses!!??? -dies- but i'm not fretting as yet i suppose, cos i received a pleasant surprise today! found out that in our pay there's acutally some variable part on top of the basic so whoohoo there's yet more money.

Oh yes mimi!!!!!!!!!!! so sorry this fri i decided not to go meet you and grace.. cos i figured it'd be better if i did my make up at home first before going to work.. on sat i have to go fine some secluded toilet to do makeup. haha... Anyway, next week sat we go pierce ears ok!! I think I'm gonna give up my espla job for that day since i'm doing the same event for 2 days.

happy! sha-la-la-la-la....

Makes me wonder if some other ushers have got an auto alert thing when jobs are realeased. I'm so appalled!! I release a job for shell thinking that no one would be online now to check if there are jobs available and the second i release it, swoop! it's gone. I'm so sorry man shell..

Anyway, it's a happy morning.. I had a good dose of shut-eye and now my eye ain't that red anymore. Still a little sad i had to give up the trocks last night due to my infected eye, but oh well i guess the venue officer would have sent me packing anyway. So i went to the doc and got an mc to be submitted to the espla. Sigh. -crosses my fingers and hopes that sat i won't be given outer door duties-

The rest of the week should be quite relaxed. I've submitted in all my assignments due before the week break so i'm relatively freeee... yay. Tonight's gonna be my first tennis lesson and i'm excited!! hahaha well i did learn tennis last time, but i've more of less forgotten everything so i'm gonna re-learn all the skills.

*hyperventilates* oh man.. i had to close the window immediately. Surfing the adidas online store is killing me. Now i have a pair of cool sandals and gorgeous tennis shoes on my wishlist. Coupled with a few other tops. hai....

Eating a nice ham sandwich now... shall go watch the telly then go give tuition.. I'm so lazy to practise math. haha... have a great day everyone!!

janice is bacckkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whee i'm so glad my dear girl has returned to sunny singapore! and she said the exact same thing everyone else would have said if they returnef from London. "Singapore is so humid." heh. oh wells i can't wait to meet up with her again real soon. :))))

Church this morning was alright, and it definately brought back certain STC memories.. aww.. the same old songs we used to sing, and the priest was the same as well.. as corny as ever. But upon departure i had mixed feelings about joining a catholic church. Maybe I'll go sit in in a christian church and see which i'd prefer.. Well anwyay after mass we went down to aljunied and sweated it out at the major levis sale. which was seriously, damn bloody cheap. So i grabbed myself an engineered dress for a mere 30 bucks! and a belt for 10 bucks. Feeling satisfied but a tad guilty, we went to the bus-stop only to turn our backs and see that oh man.. there's a why pay more warehouse right behind us! So genna involved again and i got myself a pair of tennis shorts as well as an adidas tee which was also, cheap cheap!

I'm still feeling guilty for my unexpected splurge though. hahaha... work sucked however, and i hated the damn senior cos she was just mean. And it was only the both of us working so i had no choice but to stick with her. SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks to mamathir though, who was so sweet to come watch the crap performance just cos i told him i was ushering. :)

And so as usual i think i'm gonna konk out in approximately 20 mins time. Just typed out roughly what i want to say for the oral presentation tmr and will just leave the rest to consistent prayers. I've done my part for the essay, so just hope that she won't scream her infamous oh-----my---GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! high pitched agonised yell again.

wish me all the luck in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm at a loss as to what to say.

my heart's broken. (almost.)

my nerves are failing.

i feel so weak and tired.

so overwhelmed.

so distracted.

my veins are all in a mush.

sigh!

alas, for i'm in the presence of my yans!
sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i love her!
she's so funny!
she's better than SHE!

Now everybody, let's shout out to yans. SELF PRAISE IS INTERNATIONAL DISGRACE. she typed all of the above.